Is this love? Or just a really good friendship? Am I forcing this? Or are we meant to be?

So, I don't wanna say his name, so we'll just call him Jordan. I met him in kindergarden half way through the year. The principal made him show me around the school, and he sat in my group, but we didn't really hang out much. WE WERE IN KINDERGARDEN! The opposite still had cooties. Anyway, we moved on to first grade. At recess, we'd all play the girls chases boys game, and all my friends had to pick out a boy they liked, but I didn't really care for boys yet. I didn't wanna be left out though, so I picked Jordan. I used to chase him everyday at recess. By the end of the year, I started to actually kind of like him. So, in second grade, I had a crush on him, but we still didn't really talk. Third grade was the year we talked a lot, but in a bad way. Third grade was like his mean streak or something. He was so mean to me in the third grade. He used to talk about me and pick on me ALL THE TIME. Like, seriously. He would go OUT OF HIS WAYy to embarr me!! But, for some reason, about half way through 4th grade, we actually got really cool. Tyler was the first boy I really talked to like a friend. He always lived right around the corner from me, but that summer, he came outside, and I came outside, and we played way more often. Finally, 5th grade graduation came. We exchanged phone numbers, but after that summer, we sort of just...stopped calling each other. I went the whole sixth grade year without him, since I had moved to Sobrante'. Then, the next year, In seventh grade, he had transfered to my school. YAYy! We were reuntited. This was the awkwardest school year ever with him, during the middle of the year, I sort of started liking him...as mORE THAN A FRIEND. We talked on the phone every might and myspaced all the time, but it was just friendly stuff. I didn't wanna tell him I liked him. That's like asking my brother out. I really felt that way too. Like I had a crush on my brother. One day, we were talking, and there was just awkward silence, so...i kissed him. Joshua was the first boy I talked to like a friend, my first best friend, and my first kiss. That made everything even more awkward. Ever since the beginning of 7th grade, we had a thing where we would go to the movies or Baystreet, or peer 39 on fridays. That friday, we made out in the movies. THen came 8th grade That was last school year. I saw him at the bus stop, and we walked and talked, then he invited me to his house. I hadn't seen his mom since last year, so I decided to go. He came home and yelled for his mom, but she wasn't there, so he called her and said he had company. We watched TV for a while, and then went outside and played basketball, and then went in his room and took funny pictures and videos fot youtube, like we always do, and his phone started ringing. While he was talkin' on it, I layed down on his bed, and when he got off the phone, he layed down with me. he's the only guy I know that could lay in bed with a girl and talk about noraml stuff like SCHOOL. I started kissing him, and then it got silent. We both knew, but he wasn't sure if he should. When i smiled,I guess that gave him a hint, and he undressed me. Jordan was the first boy I talked to like a friend, my first best friend, my first kiss, and...my first time. This summer, he finally asked me out, 8 monthes after we had and everything. I, of course said yea. Jordan's like my brother. But still, he was my first everything. Is this right???